Growing up, I never wanted to have children of my own. This probably came from hanging around my nieces and nephews... the children of my signficantly older siblings. They were good kids for the most part, but parenting just seemed like a lot of work. I preferred simplicity and ease. I just didn't seem worth the hassle. Even now looking back on my first pregnancy, I had no idea what to expect. I knew I was blessed, but I had not idea the extent and grace that blessing would bring, until she arrived. I've read that deciding to have a child is like choosing to have your heart walk outside of your body for the rest of your life. Until that happens, nothing can prepare you for the experience, and nothing can compare. Today is the 23rd birthday of my first-born child. Sierra has been here with me for most of my life now and to be honest, I don't remember what it was like without her. Or, maybe I just can't imagine it. She truly is my heart.
Sierra is extraordinary. She's wise, mature and responsible. She always has been. Even when she was a child she was trustworthy and respectful. I don't remember doing much disciplining with her at all. Sierra always seemed to be able to take care of herself... and do it well.
There are many, many things that Sierra does well, but one of the graces that blesses us all is her ability to give. She gives straight from the heart and that is evident by her choice of gifts. She knows exactly what everyone wants and needs. It has to come from truly caring about the person she is gifting. She pays attention to people... looking for clues... then she seeks and presents just the right thing at the right time. And, I'm not just talking about material things. She is intuitive and knows how to do for others when they are in need the most. She gifted me with one my greatest roles, that of being a mother. Something I never thought I wanted, and yet cannot imagine my life without. Because of her, my life is forever changed and filled with purpose.
Happiest birthday my dear girl. I am so proud to be your mother. You make me look good. I can't wait to see what your accomplish next.