Without Him

Recently, someone asked me if Leroy was as kind as he seemed.  I was touched by the astute observation and assured her that he was and that I was blessed to have him.  I haven't always appreciated the gift that he is, but as we continue to grow, and grow up together it becomes clearer and clearer to me, every day. I love the song "Without You" that Keith Urban wrote for his wife.   It is a beautiful tribute to their relationship, but there is one line that always strikes me when I hear it.

"And people that I barely knew, love me ‘cause I’m part of you."

That's me.  There are so many people in our lives that love me out of respect for Leroy... It's almost overwhelming.  At one time in my life, that would be a sad or frightening thought... but I am reassured by the concept now.  The life I lead, the love I share and enjoy is because of the relationship I have with him.  Leroy is my other half in every sense and my constant gift of grace.

Before this year, Leroy was not a follower of my blog... but since January 1st he has read it daily.  In years past I have written about him in this forum, but not directly to him.  Today, on his 45th birthday, I will make an exception and share my words with him directly... and share them with the world.

Leroy,

I hope that you will never need to rely on my words to know how much you mean to me and how much I love and adore you.  I will never be able to express the depth of emotion that I hold for you in my heart.  Each day I strive to live my life in a manner that will display my affection, but I fail, often.

We are not perfect, but our love is perfect because it is pure grace.

You are my world... and everything good in my life would mean nothing if you weren't there to share it with me.  Going back to the song...

"Without you I'd survive, but I'd have to have the notion... that I would live this life just going through the motions."

I love you more and wish you the happiest of birthdays.  I'm looking forward to our 75th wedding anniversary... and all the ones in between.