I've started and stopped this post at least a dozen times. My heart swells, my throat gets tight and my eyes well up as I write... but the words seem so inadequate. So I delete it all and start over again. I am frustrated beyond understanding because I have so much to say and no complete way to express it. Sometimes, there are no words.
To explain to you how much I love Leroy, I would need the words of all the love stories ever written, every romantic poem or love song lyric. It would require the use of all the visual arts ever created... all facets of self-expression and yet the sun, the moon and the stars would still be missing.
And then I realized. We do have the perfect expression of the love we share in our two beautiful children, Sierra and Steel. Their very lives and extraordinary spirits are witness to the love that created them. It is no wonder that I stand in awe of them and still do not completely comprehend the gift they are to us and the rest of the world. I don't know that I ever will. I thank God for them and for Leroy with every breath.
This love is every happiness I have ever experienced, every joy I have ever known. All my life, everything that is good has included Leroy, or the thought, or dream or wish of him. I loved him long before we met and he has lived up to every hope and expectation. This is so much more than a
. It is all that I am, all that I was and all that I will ever be. It is everything beautiful, lovely and just. Without him, I cease to exist because he truly is my other half. The best of me.
So to the man I love... Happy Anniversary. 25 years is a long time, but not nearly long enough. Here's to the
of this love story. I cannot imagine where it will take us in the future, but I look forward to every moment with you.
I love you more than you will ever know.